My name is Rachel Louise. Most friends call me Rachel, but the reason I used two
names is because I couldn’t just leave Rachel as it is, and I thought Louise had
a nice sound to it too. I was aware how popular Rachel was as a name too, so that
was another reason for having a 'double name.'
I'm 36. I've dressed in girl's clothing practically all my life. It never occurred
to me as a young boy that it was odd. I like pretty things, and thought skirts and
tops and dresses were so cool, not like the awful clothes I felt I had to wear. My
mom would often say, when I would say I wanted something that 'you can't have that,
it's for girls !' and this has been a running comment throughout my life.
I didn’t ever start dressing up thinking it was wrong and the family made it clear
they opposed it. So, I opposed them, I refused to have my hair cut, and when it was
long enough, would style it like a girl would.
I went into therapy to get the help I wasn’t getting at home. They thought I was
a TS, and recommended I go on hormones. I was never happier, although I felt they
were pushing me to transition fully, which I wasn’t sure about doing. I had several
bad episodes, and 4 years after I started, at age 19, I just came off the hormones
in a bid to live life as a male. It was a disaster of course, but by 24 I had accepted
this part of myself, finally, and over the years grown in confidence, have wonderful
friends, and even support from real girls and a measured level of acceptance from
I think crossdressing is a wonderful, positive thing. I would tell any woman straight
away about this, and if she didn’t want to know, well at least I had been honest
about it. I have been out in public many times, I'm still not as confident as maybe
I should be, but I think I have much to do to be totally convincing. It's something
I continue to work on.
I love shopping but the temptation to buy remains very high and so i don't do this
as often as I would like. I get a lot of fun of gong out in public, doing videos,
photos and sometimes, just relaxing for a day, dressed as a girl. Life is too short
to let this subject get in the way of your life, or someone else's, and while I've
had my challenges, I wouldn’t change any part of it because it's who I am.
Click on Rachel’s portrait below to go to her Flickr page. Rachel also has a You
Tube page which you can see by clicking here .